I think this is the end!

Was over at a friends house earlier watching MNF. Decided to check my email. Read this from XXXXX: "hey...

i'm on the edge of a breakdown... can't take murph anymore.. he responded to my email, and i feel worse than ever.

also can't take the unspoken pressure from you. i don't know if you and i will ever be together. i just can't see it. i know you're nice to me, you respect me, etc., but i don't feel anything for you more than friendship. it's like i have to force myself to like you in a romantic way. it's just not happening naturally.

i'm sick and tired of everything. life has become such a constant struggle day in, day out. i should be feeling better, but i don't. i feel more and more like i'm losing my grip.

therefore, i am not going to talk to you or murph or any other guy that has/had any interest in me as a partner.

i'm hurt beyond belief by murph, and i can't take knowing that you're chomping at the bit just waiting for me to succumb to you.

i'm done for now. i'm gonna focus on myself and myself only.

for all intents and purposed, men be damned.

i'll talk to you when i talk to you."

WOW! It hasn't fully sunk in yet. I need time to absorb this.