Thursday, January 21, 2010

Happy New Year?

More than a month since I last posted. What's new as far as XXXXX? Not much to tell. She has been more talkative on FB with me. I still don't initiate contact first. I see she's online and wait for her to contact me. Most times she does, sometimes she doesn't. It's all good. Although, I have a hard time not starting the conversation first sometimes but I'm still going by her "I'll talk to you when I talk to you" request. Lately she's been asking for guidance on getting over her ex. She's having a hard time dealing with it even after all these months. I do understand. Speaking of getting over. I'm still in love with her. I think I always will be. I feel great helping her out with her problems and only want the best for her. I feel so bad knowing that she is in pain. I just want to be there for her and knowing that I can't just tears me apart inside to no end. BUT, this is what she wants and I can do no more that I'm already doing. She knows exactly how I feel about her. She, unfortunately, doesn't feel the same and I'm dealing with it to the best of my ability. Am I trying to change the way she feels? Not really. Maybe. Not exactly. I think what I'm trying to do is make her realize that I can and will do so much for her. More than all of her past relationships combined. She needs to know what a loving and caring relation can and should be like. I want to be the man that can and will show her what real love can be! She doesn't feel the same. I have to move on. But it's hard. Whew! I feel better. If by chance you, (XXXXX), are reading this, I LOVE YOU! Maybe one day you will love me too! Until then. Sweet dreams babe! May your life progress and blossom into something that you can live with and cherish.