OMG!

How things have changed since I last posted! XXXXX has been more talkative towards me since my last post. She is still having issues in regards to her ex. Still having a hard time dealing with the breakup. Her idle time is basically consumed with thoughts of him. Idle time. I understand how she feels since during all of my idle time all I do is think about her. She is having an especially hard time with it though. I finally told her that she is co-dependent and she agreed with my synopsis. She needs to move on but it's not as easy as just getting over him. Boy, do I understand that. I do my best to help her through this rough time by telling, suggesting, that she occupy her time by keeping busy. Easier said then done! The weather up there hasn't been conducive to any outside activities, so that is out of the question. OK. Here is what has been happening. A few days ago she asked if I had ever been on a cruise. I have not. She asked me if I would go on a cruise with her! OMG! DAMN RIGHT I would! With no strings or expectations attached! Just being with her would be sooo cool! She mentioned a demolition derby in Lancaster. Yeah, I'd be there! Tonight she actually asked me this:

XXXXX

so when can u come up to visit?

OMG! My answer? ANYTIME! I'm trying not to get my hopes up but it's hard not too. I so very much want to see her and spend time with her. BUT, she could always change her mind. What if she does? I can deal with it! I have to! I'm not looking to have sex with her, although that would be great, but just seeing her and spending time with her and making her happy is all that I could ask for. Just seeing her happy is all that matters to me! Mind you, I LOVE this woman! I have for the past 18 years! OK! I feel better now just knowing that we still remain friends even though she knows I feel differently about her than she does of me. It's ALL good! Stay tuned!