And so it goes

Yeah, it does go. Here's what has been happening since my last post. XXXXX as you know, has been more talkative with me. Excellent! She seems to be getting over her ex more and more everyday! Definitely good! One of our chats on FB she mentioned that she has some time off in March and asked me if I had ever been on a cruise. I have not. She asked me if I would go on a cruise with her! OMG! I almost passed out. DAMN RIGHT I would! Whoa. Those plans changed a few days later. No problem. She forgot that March was going to be a busy month and that other family plans were put ahead of any cruise. Family comes first! A few days later we were chatting about this and that. Here is some info that is paramount to the story but would get me in trouble if I told you so, I'm gonna skip some parts. Basically I was invited up to see her for a certain reason. Plans were made and I was to leave tomorrow. Imagine how I'm feeling right now. I haven't seen XXXXX since what......September? I was soooo excited to get to see her and couldn't wait till I left! Plans changed. Her therapist advised against me coming up to see her. Why? One reason was that her therapist thought didn't want XXXXX to mislead me or lead me on. Would that have happened? Hard to tell. I get the feeling that XXXXX is starting to have feelings for me but is afraid of them. Could I be right? Here's what I think. She asked if I would be interested on going on a cruise with her. That's a good sign! She asked if I would go to a demolition derby with her during the summer! That's a good sign! She has mentioned that she just wants to hang around with me and get drunk and just hang out. What do you think? Am I just reading things that are not there? Knowing how I feel about her I may just be doing that. I don't think so though. I think I may need to back off even further now in order for her to figure out what she wants and can only hope it's me! More later. I'm getting tired.